I KNEW IT WAS HAPPENING, I HAD KNOWN FOR A LONG TIME THAT IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN…IT WAS EXCRUCIATING… TO WATCH… TO WAIT…TO WANT IT TO END..AND NOT END AT THE SAME TIME.
I KNEW I HAD TO LET IT HAPPEN AND I KNEW THERE WAS NO STOPPING IT
I PREPARED FOR YEARS FOR WHEN IT WOULD HAPPEN- YET- WHEN IT HAPPENED – I WAS UNPREPARED FOR WHAT HAPPENED- TO ME.